I like mine with lettuce and tomato, heinz 57 and french fried potatos | lostinmyownhome's Blog

Another week has come and gone, and not much has changed.  My anger was short-lived, as it always is.  I cannot stay mad at anyone, which is a good thing.  My wife(?) has been pretty much staying in her room, just coming out to eat, then right back in.    I have been going though the house, finding things the kids can sell at a garage sale.  I figured that would be the best way to get them some spending money.  I found a lot of things I figured we could live without, got the garage all organized, tables set up, prices marked on everything.  Told the kids I hope to make enough money to get the new cats fixed and de-clawed, and they could split any other money from the sale.  I hope they end up with enough to make the sale worthwhile.       I have noticed that I have been eating pretty regular lately, got my appetite back, and I have been putting on weight.  I should be back up to my normal weight soon.  Of course, it all seems to be settling around my middle, but I'm just glad to be gaining weight.  I hope my chest stays bigger than my belly, but if it doesn't, what the hell, that's life.  I know my food choices could be better, I've been eating a lot of dairy (cream cheese, chocolate milk), a lot of sugary things (cereals and candy), and my beloved cheeseburgers.  I think there is nothing better than a homemade cheeseburger, hot off the grill.  Thick and juicy, dripping with gooey cheese and condiments.      Used to be, I would not eat when I was depressed.  I am still depressed, but now I can eat.  Maybe I am just sick of being depressed, and ready for something different.  It's hard not to be depressed in my situation, but I cannot wallow in it forever.     Some day, someone will like me, maybe even love me.  Until then I will keep on being a good dad, and a good worker, keep my chores done, and relax now and then.